update and a little confession

Mar 6, 20127 min read

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Published: Mar 6, 2012

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_{Hello everyone!

Sorry I've been absent from DA for so long, but I figured I'd post one more journal before my subscription runs out. It makes checking messages so much easier so I feel I'd definitely be tempted to get one again later haha. So as some of you know who follow me on twitter or tumblr, I've been on the full time job hunt. How is that going? Hmm, I think not bad, just nothing is for certain yet. So I'll keep at it!

Little Confessions
I recently read kurot's journal about her life story, and I'm fortunate and lucky to say that I don't have anything similar like that to share but, it did make me wonder how well do my watchers know me? Or how well would they like to know me?

So again, my deepest apologies to those still waiting on their CG commission slots from soon to be 2 years ago. I have this bad tendency to bite off more than I can chew. I don't like to disappoint and I want to do everything! In my head I think well I have this much free time I can do it! But I always forget that life is unpredictable haha. I also don't like to pass up opportunities, so even with all the work I should be doing, things come up I feel are more of a priority to me. I really can't wait to finish my list of commission work! Not that I don't like it, but then I can open new ones in very small numbers. Like one or two hahaha.

Back to the job hunting, I've been on a roller-coaster of emotions for the past half a year or so, every morning I wake up, and night before bed I think about all the things I need to do. How I need to find a job. I'm excited to move on in my life, yet worried at the same time. My mind is kind of exhausted, and I really can't wait to breathe that one sigh of relief.

In hindsight, it really is all my fault, I definitely could've worked harder pre-graduation, and post-graduation. Even if I have good enough work I still lack industry experience; it's always harder finding that first job. I'm always telling myself that I want to read more, do more side projects, better myself in so many ways, but I never find the time to. That probably is an excuse, there's always time but do I make time for it? I think about it definitely. I'm not the type to say I'll do something and it ends up just being words, I guess my problem is that there are just too many things I want to do. Every day I have decide what's more important.

I really thank the people who still visit my webpage here, or the new followers I have. I have noticed that the traffic here has dropped noticeably due to my lack of presence here. The only way for me to bring that back up is to update regularly. Another slice of time I need to devote myself to.

Anyways, that's a little about me behind the scenes, I'm a little poor at managing all the things I need to do, but I still love doing the things I do. If there's anything any of you would like to know about me, or just curious to ask, feel free to send them to my Ask box on tumblr.

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